ClaireyFairy

About way too much.

Especially my ex……why do I keep panicing when he hasn’t phoned me or text me?

He doesn’t have to..

And yet I get anxious when he doesn’t because we’ve spoken pretty much everyday since everything happened.

I think….I need HELP!

>_<

I think I need to start going again. It’s been like 2 weeks since I’ve been and I went from hardly eating anything to eating a load of crap!! Need to get motivated and start excercising. Maybe I’ll have to start going for runs in the mornings aswell. Sounds like a plan is forming!!

I thought I was over him…..Obviously not after last night.

I still care, and it freaking hurts.

I wish it hadn’t happened, I wish I could rewind the clocks.

I can’t believe we spoke till midnight, just outside my house.

It’s for the best, I know…..

Doesn’t stop it being sad.

I will miss you

Never stop being my friend

♥

I get sooooo paranoid sooooo freaking easily. It’s always whenever my boyfriend is around his ex though. I do trust him completely, it’s the skank I don’t trust. I wish I wasn’t like this, if I’m REALLY honest. I wish that what happened last year, never happened and then I certainly wouldn’t be like this!! But it did happen and that’s why I am like this. If I got to know her, befriend her and all and find out she is lovely and wouldn’t do that kind of thing, then I wouldn’t have a problem in the world. But I haven’t ever spoken to her, she complains that if I’m around and she’s around that it is awkward and prefers to see him when I’m not there! And from people that do know her, none of them like her. One of my best friend’s thinks that she is still after him. This doesn’t help me. But I’ve spoken to him since, and he seems fine, he doesn’t seem like he was the last time where he was all, we need to talk, i still have feelings for her. I’m pretty certain he doesn’t anymore. But knowing he’s going to be at his boss’ house all this week, from Tuesday and there is a possibilty she will be there [because her mum is going out with his boss and they are in the process of moving in] is not helping me really. So I really hope I get to see him today, because I do miss him like crazy =(

P.S. I think I need a life, or maybe to be able to take some kinda pill to relax me or something >_<